trip lee - looking for love

come away with me

I haven't written in awhile, I have been busy.  I have a big midterm today and I am nervous.  That isn't why I am writing though.  I am writing because I have been meaning to post this video which I will do after I write.  I am sitting in my "2nd home"  and I just can't help but just let things pour out.

I have been analyzing my life and what matters to me.  One main thing is love.  A life without love would be an empty hollow shell it would be meaningless and sad.  I found love but not through just anyone....I found to love myself and found a deeper more meaningful love with the God of my understanding.  Ever since the ending of my last relationship it caused me to really analyze everything.   what i want out of my life.  what i can tolerate and what i can't.  i realized that i compromised a lot of myself in order to make that person happy.  i couldn't understand why that was a pattern in my life until recently.  Knowing the God of my understanding has helped enlighten me.  through knowing him i have come to realize i can't be with anyone until my heart is healed.  I have to love myself deeper and have a deeper relationship with God.  He has to heal my heart and through that I will find the person i will be with for the rest of my life.  I plan on the next person i am with to be the last.  I know this is God's will.  So for now i will keep working on myself and my relationship with the God of my understanding and through his i have faith everything will fall into it's proper place....now back to studying =)

John legend ordinary people with lyrics (on screen)

i don't know.....i just need to take a step back and keep my focus everything happens for a reason take my own advice....love myself and all will fall into place....i will see in february

Carrie Underwood - This Time (with lyrics)

my heart is burstin at the seams! ah

Breakeven, The Script / The Only Exception, Paramore

The Missing Piece Meets the Big O

I read this story with my friend while in Massachusetts. It is amazing story and i hope you get inspired just like i did when i read it with my friend =)

lesson learned

"You have to let go of being a victim and accept your part and what you've done. You have to know that people will only do to you what you allow them to. That under no circumstances can you change someone. You are going to fall, have heartache, and pain but thats life you cant have a testimony without a test. So for every test you pass theres a new strength you gain and for every test you fail well its another lesson learned."