I haven't written in awhile, I have been busy. I have a big midterm today and I am nervous. That isn't why I am writing though. I am writing because I have been meaning to post this video which I will do after I write. I am sitting in my "2nd home" and I just can't help but just let things pour out.
I have been analyzing my life and what matters to me. One main thing is love. A life without love would be an empty hollow shell it would be meaningless and sad. I found love but not through just anyone....I found to love myself and found a deeper more meaningful love with the God of my understanding. Ever since the ending of my last relationship it caused me to really analyze everything. what i want out of my life. what i can tolerate and what i can't. i realized that i compromised a lot of myself in order to make that person happy. i couldn't understand why that was a pattern in my life until recently. Knowing the God of my understanding has helped enlighten me. through knowing him i have come to realize i can't be with anyone until my heart is healed. I have to love myself deeper and have a deeper relationship with God. He has to heal my heart and through that I will find the person i will be with for the rest of my life. I plan on the next person i am with to be the last. I know this is God's will. So for now i will keep working on myself and my relationship with the God of my understanding and through his i have faith everything will fall into it's proper place....now back to studying =)
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