couldn't sleep

i couldn't sleep at all last night and when i finally did i overslept....i had too many thoughts of everything from my failed relationship to school to work and to where i go from here.

I kept listening to sappy love songs too.... i am trying not to be angry....i hate that i can't talk to you....and you always come outta left field....all this time and we still haven't even had a conversation....

and i hate that i am at work and have to dispose of these thoughts and that you cloud my mind i wonder what you're doing who you are with if you are safe ....

when i saw those pictures i had to delete you....i couldn't deal with seeing you happy without me...like i never existed, like i didn't matter, like we never loved at all...how quick you were to move on

i don't know what to do anymore or how to feel.....i feel so hurt but i know that if i didn't let you go it would prove i was selfish and didn't really love you

love is wanting the other person happy with or without you....you chose to be without me.....

i have to stop....i will write later....i just wish to talk to you