Today's moon phase is the new moon. It is a significant because it is said it is a good time to start something, recharge a goal or it is a perfect time to quit something. To me this is significant because a drastic change has occurred in my life. I lost a love that I thought would be the last love of my life. I will not bore you with the details or maybe you want to know but for now I can not divulge such information because as you know there are two sides to every story and it wouldn't be fair to have just one. Anyway with the close to this last relationship it made me realize i need to re-evaluate and reassess my values, beliefs, wants, needs, and whatever else I am missing lol that make up who I am, that make up me.
I've been wanting to get my wrists finished. ( you will notice i will break off into tangents...lol) I mean finish getting them inked. The reason i bring this up is because it is related to the journey to finding and falling in love with myself. I have had a incredible past one that no one in one lifetime should ever have to endure, unfortunately but fortunately i have. I have learned from every experience that has made me who i am today. I feel that if i can sand down the rough jagged edges of some parts of me maybe i can finally fully move on. I don't just mean trauma but also failed relationships from everywhere from my father to the last relationship i have had...to deaths i've dealt with trials tribulations just everything. One of my plans is to write letters to help me fully let go....and with this said until i completely mend myself i will not and can not get my wrists finished lol.....so ::whip cracking sound:: i will get this shit done haha....
Right now i wanna thank the people who have stood by me and showed me love and support through this difficult time. Thank you for helping me stay focused and centered. Thank you for helping me put things in perspective and smacking those damn rose colored glasses right of my face ;)
I'm out xxxo
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