making progress

tonight is the first night i actually don't miss him....and realize that it is ok that i am enjoying my life despite the situation i am in.

i think that is progress for sure!  i am learning to sleep in my bed alone again....it's actually in a weird way nice to hog the bed lol and nice to sleep in a room that is the temperature that i want! haha

anyway i had a great night =)  today was my baby cousin's birthday she is 20 today.   I feel old but i know i am young....i have a lot of living still left to do....but being she turned 20 today it made me realize how drastic my life has changed since i was 20. 

When i was 20 i was getting into all sorts of trouble.  Didn't know which way i was going or what i was doing or wanted to do with my life.  Now at 24 i have goals, i am responsible (sorta anyways lol), i know what i want outta my life and i know what i can and can not tolerate.  I did a lot of growing up in the last 4 years.  

I dunno if i mentioned that i want to write "let go" letters....maybe i will write one tonight....dunno

besides that i am going up to New England to see friends this weekend!  I will be traveling through Rhode Island then making my way to Massachusetts then back to Jersey Sunday.  I am excited the last time i was up there was January...it's been way too long...lol i practically missed summer. haha which i can't even believe is almost over!

Anywho i have to get up early tomorrow so I will write some more soon and maybe who knows i might right that letter tonight...or maybe after the weekend....

xxxo

PSsorry these are short and not detailed yet i am still learning how to blog freely....